First… I have been off regular social media for a week and 1 day. I almost broke down yesterday and downloaded it again but I resisted. I still get on linkedin and I still have my messenger for facebook but other than that, I have been drama free. Slightly… I do check my CNN app in the mornings so get the Trump news and the news about what is going on in Gaza and Iran and them but that is it! Honestly, I am super proud of myself. I would sit and scroll on social media for HOURS and not do a thing productive. It was getting draining. My kids would be like “Mom you are distracted again with your phone” and they were so right! Even though I miss my celebrity news, I appreciate being present in the moment. I also said I am not getting back on social media until I accomplish 1 major goal of mine. So when you see me back, you will know it was accomplished!! 🙂

Second… WHAT IS UP WITH ALL THESE CICADAS!?!? Dang! I can’t even think when I am outside. These things came in like we predicted and are loud as heck! I hear them as I am typing this moment. My nerves be shot! Yesterday one flew in my car and I promise it screamed! Loud too. It was screaming, I was screaming. We both were screaming together! When do these things leave again? I am ready because this is interfering with my HOT GIRL SUMMER! I am inside!

Third… I am back with another quick blog. Quick check in/realization of my life. I like these quick ones. I feel like I am texting and checking in lol I do plan to make these longer and more in-depth. I am just getting used to writing and having other people seeing my work. Again I am very sensitive about my ish. But I AM SO PROUD that I am back posting again. It is actually very therapeutic. I hope you enjoy and it encourages you to tap into those things that give you peace and pours into your cup.

Lets have a history moment today!
This fact of today feeds my true crime soul and my history soul at the same time. Today marks the anniversary of India’s former Prime Minister, Rajiv Gandhi. On this day, May 21, 1991. Rajiv Gandhi was assassinated by… A WOMANN!!!! She was believed to be linked to an militant organization known as the Tamil Tigers. It was a suicide bombing and at least 14 people lost their lives. WTF!!! That is insane to me! I pulled this up on the whim so if you want more information, let me know and I will dive more into this situation.

Lets do a lighter history moment!
Today, 120 years ago, FIFA was established. I have a great appreciation for Soccer. I love watching it. My son is soooo good at it. It has really entertained me over the years. It was founded to oversee international competition among 7 national associations- Belgium, Denmark, France, Netherlands, Spain, Sweden and Switzerland. Now this is legit FOOTball lol For my 30th birthday I went to Cancun and Croatia and Morocco were playing for third place at the World Cup. When I tell you the energy was so high and the fans were out in full effect! It was so fun. Everything was in Spanish and I just sat in the bar and watched the entire game and yelled with everyone else. Did not understand a lick of commentary but I was hollering too! It was so fun being in the midst. So Happy Founding Day FIFA!!

Mental Health Check In:
I am so grateful! I am grateful for peace of mind. I am grateful for my family and friends. I am just grateful. I am grateful for my home that I hide out in often from the Cicadas. I am just grateful for everything. Many times I want to complain but ultimately I have to remember I am grateful. I am excited to see what God has in store for me and my babies. My oldest has healed from his injury and I am still making him wear the cast to school. The strap is hanging off and everything but he is still wearing that thing until school is out. Even then I may make him wear it longer. I am just paranoid really lol I am ready for school to be out and summer time. I want to get in the pool, eat grilled food, go on the lake. All things outside AFTER the Cicadas leave. I think most of my stress and anxiety come around this time because it is a bitter sweet moment. My babies are getting older and going to Kindergarten and 2nd Grade but at the same time my babies are getting older and going to Kindergarten and 2nd Grade if you understand what I mean. I am sad I don’t have little ones anymore but as the youngest told me this morning, “I am ready so that means you need to be ready too.” So I have no choice, the grown child has spoken. I am holding on to the fact that I am raising some extraordinary boys and I am excited to keep watching them grow and become extraordinary men. So again I say… I am grateful!

How are you feeling? What are some highs for the week? Lows? Any prayer requests? Anything! Talk to me.

What are your Memorial Weekend Plans? Who is grilling? What is the perfect thing to do Memorial Day Weekend?
Take a moment and send love and prayers to all of the people who have lost someone in the service that was fighting for our country. Our thoughts are with you and they are not forgotten.

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As always!

Love and Stuff,
Ash B